The anger and pain I feel right now is overwhelming. I can’t breathe and I’m shaking from emotion.
I want to break things, scream and shout. But I won’t, I’ll internalise everything til I burst. I have to calm down before I hyperventilate.
Where’s Pup? Right beside me like always… I’m just too angry to see… Shit! I just broke my bank card because I am shaking so badly and trying to act like nothing is wrong!
What did I even go into the fucking store for in the first place! I just hope nobody talks to me because I’m not in any frame of mind for chitchat.
To have someone that you thought you were in a long distance relationship with tell you they’ve been seeing someone else without officially ending it with you, hurts a lot.
I don’t know why people can’t be honest. I’ve learned from this that people only need you until something better comes along. Devotion and loyalty count for nothing it seems. Out of sight, out of mind obviously.
The excuse of “it just happened ” doesn’t wash with me because I was strung along for so long, whilst you were blanking me and getting cozy with someone else.
I hung around throughout all your excuses, only to have everything I’ve been there with you for, thrown back at me. The lies were unnecessary, same as the constant blanking and ignorance.
Then you try to make me end things because you wanted an easy way out. You could’ve just told me…
You had to disrespect me after everything I’ve done for you, breaking me down until I’m questioning everything about my life. Now I feel worthless and broken.
Did I really deserve that?
Was it necessary?
Are you happy?
I brought this on myself though, I gave you a second chance and this time you do me worse than before.
I’m a fucking idiot but I damn well deserve better than what you did.
No I haven’t slept and it’s 4 30 am. You have destroyed me when there was no need whatsoever.
I hope you’re happy…